M

There is no more darkness inside me, no more.

You were the lightness outside me. I drown on it, I can say, with all certainty, that you gave me the happiest time of my life, something I never cared before, happiness, the blind pursuit of humanity. 

You were the lightness outside me. Meeting you came as a surprise, as something I never expected, something I wasn't ready, something that when I was ready, it was too late. I have to say that I never loved somebody without expecting to be loved in return, though I know your memories will disagree, cause I acted wrongly many times, but with you, I got the real meaning of the phrase "let's be part of our lives for ever, no matter what" 

You were the lightness outside me,  my friend, though you might disagree, I was your friend, I am your friend still and forever will be. I loved you with all my heart and I still do and forever will, no matter what, even if I never see you again, though, I hope you have your metal wings, if that is still what you want, I hope that you keep touching the piano keys in such a way, such a way I can't take out of my mind, I hope you are still painting your dreams but I hope those dreams are now full of happiness, I hope that you forgive the past, all your past and make peace with everybody, especially with yourself, I hope that you are happy M and most of all, I really hope that you realise that God loves you and as me, he will always do, in ways I can't explain, even when I think about my love, in ways that matter, in ways that doesn't matter. Know that if destiny, faith, God's will or even your free will, put us in the same path, even for a second, I will give you the hug, that I want to say nobody has given you, though maybe I am wrong, but I will you give the hug, the hug summing up every second I keep missing you.

You were the lightness outside me. When you left,  it came as a surprise, as something I never expected, something I wasn't ready, something that when I was ready, it was too late. The door got open, and without the lightness outside, darkness consumed me, broke me. I know I was probably dreaming but there was a day where I think I died and came back. Pandora's box opened and the painting that I disliked so much, of that thing, became a reality. 

You were the lightness outside me and when you left, the darkness inside me disappeared. You were my two most unexpected surprises and now there is not darkness inside me, no more. 

From the bottom of my heart and with a genuine, pure, like never before, smile in my face, thank you M.